I felt like thinking a bit about me, though it seems selfish, i actually think I did need to do that. Im still in a period in life where "myself" is not completely defined, and I want to be able to see the changes in me and I thought that writing "myself" down would help me see them... So, its fine with me if nobody reads this, because its somehow more for me in a few years than anything else. I wanna know if this IS me, or just a phase, a part of me, a fraction of my personality, or simply a wrong idea. And going around who I am, I discovered that I always go to what I like and what I'd like to do and to be, and what I do, being that silly, dummie things, that, of course, I consider not many other people do.. but who knows
I guess not many will read it to the end, it's quite long and boring... but, if you do, thanks!!

Now.. oh yes, the list!
- I love to think I'm very different, though I'm not as different as I wish I were... and I know that
- I like and dislike myself a lot; I love pictures of me and sometimes i dislike. Sometimes I look at me in the mirror and I love everything, and sometimes I just hate everything... just like any other girl does.
- I love dressing up, and getting pretty, but I barely ever wear make-up, or high-heels or those kinds of things. Im not a fashionista, and I actually dont even see a point in "fashion" itself, but I love clothes and shopping. And Im good at combining and making outfits.
- I love languages; english, french, and so on.. And I love the british accent, and I die to talk with a british accent. I like to read english things out loud, pretending to be british, and that's another reason for me to love british movies and series... because I try and try to get their accent.
- My safe place has always been the bathroom, not even my bedroom, but the bathroom. It's like since I have an "excuse" to be locked, people can't disturb me as much or force me out of it. When Im sad or crying, or simply unstable, I'd rather lock myself in the bathroom and cry, though it is in my room that I have a pillow to cry on, and that its more comfortable. I like to lock myself in it just sit down on the floor and read, write, or even talk with myself.
- I cry with many, many movies, from stupid chick flicks to comedies; from a strong drama to a dance movie. What they need to make me cry is whether a "find yourself" theme, some couple issue that I feel related to, "mother-daughter" problem, some cute love line that simply makes me cry, and a few other things...
- I love to sing, and songs, and music in general. I find music magical. I dont really like my singing, at least most of the time, and sometimes it just kills me not to be able to let go of my feelings by singing something, because it doesnt really sound nice. And I'm not bad at singing, but I'm not precisely good either.
- Im a lot like my mom, and in some things its fine with me, but I wish I were different from her in other aspects... (that Im working on, btw).
- The things I like most are the things I am most identified with, like when you go "hey, is that song aboutn me?" or "did they write that movie based in my life? but with some fiction, of course.."
- I love childish things; childish drawings, phrases, expressions, pictures, movies, series, characters, etc. But I also like the complicated, more adult-like things as well, strong movies with strong messages, and things of the kind.
- And there is something very important about me, because its something I know I've had since I was born, pretty much: I want to be recognized and to be liked... but I dont like to do things to call for attention, and I am not very sociable. I want people to know me (not everybody, of course, but the important ones) without me having to explain me, like being recognized without having to make a huge deal about what I do, like being loved without having to hug every five seconds. Im not the kind of person that shows her emotions a lot; I almost hide it all up. I don't talk, unless I have already established a strong relationship with that person, or... unless I feel a strong connection, like already existing somehow. And that's hard...
- Im the kind of person that wont laugh if you fell, unless you laugh as well. I would help you pick up your books if you dropped them, even if I haven't ever spoken with you. If I find money on the floor, before even considering to keep it, I will look for the owner, and return it if I find him/her. If you find me staring at you, it must be that I like something you're carrying or wearing, and I'm too shy to tell you. You can find me most often siting around a corner on the floor, whether writing or drawing (even though I can't draw) and listening to music. I laugh alone, and I don't care if people find me "weird". Oh, I also talk with myself, out loud (though not very loud) while I'm alone, walking or sitting down. And so on with those things...

I guess in many ways, I'm a lot like everybody else, just that in a different version... And I'm ok with it now, before, it would have killed me to be like the rest of the people, but now I'm happy with being just me. Hope you found it helpful, amusing, funny, or at least entertaining.
Have a nice day